Of course, I’ll always love you… in a way.
But what happened the other night made me realize that it’s time for a change..
I did know this before- every time I spent a day with u was only going to add to the pain.
What’s the point to all the pain?
If im hurting you so much, how can i be the right thing for you?
what was the point of our twisted love story if its only a sadness and pain?
now i could see every mistake I’d made, every bit of harm I’d done,
the small things and the big things. Each pain I’d caused had ruining your life.
and hurt you so deeply, time and time again.
maybe without me is the best and will make your life better,
You can have your way. My way is always wrong.
You can go on with your life without any more interference from me.
i will not disturb u. i will not brings problem into your life.
absence of me will make your life happier.
because i only bring sadness into your life more than a happiness.
It will be as if I’d never existed.
As i sat here..
i was trying to think of all the times you hurt me and made me cry..
Hoping and wishing that i will stop needing u.. But it didn't..
Because all the times I could remember were the ones when you showed me that you cared..
I didn't want to believe that you ever did u walk by me everyday and say hello..
say goodmorning and goodnight everytime i wakeup and sleep.
Everyday you take time out to listen to me. You talk to me, smile at me, laugh with me, and have fun with me..
Well, I talk, smile and laugh too,
but now,i keep myself silence..
without any news from u.
yet, every breath that i take i wonder where you are and what to do:(
but,its hurt me deeply when u said that im just ruining your life
i bring alots problem into your life and im just burden u.
i have no choice other than keeping my self silence.
because the absence of me will make your life much more better.
i just want u to know,
i have nothing else other that u ,
because u re my life and u re my everything.
syanaloveualotsH:(
im syana.
im not as sweet as an angle and yet, im not as bad as devil.
im juz a girl who make mistakes.
im not happy about the things i have done and the decisions that i had made.
my past is just frustrated pace of life, full of major and minor crises, the down of health, and the failure.
but its lost forever as part of yesterday.
the unkind things i do todae, may never be undone.
and the friendships that i fail to win, may nevermore be won.
I may not have another chance, on bended knee to pray.
i just live my life with hopes, with dream that will never be come true.
